The Asperger's Girl Guide

So the light at the end of the tunnel has been and gone, I have finished a degree and that is the best feeling in the world. It has been 3 years of hard work, pain, depression, stress and well just feeling like I couldn't do it. I have to wait until July until I finally get the actual piece of paper. But that feeling of absolute bliss and pride that you have achieved something is coursing through my veins and I am happy. I have a future and it starts here, the end of my education life and the start of my working life. I want to make Aspergers more understood and all the stigmas attached to it to go away so more people like us can do things like get a degree and work in a job that they love. I know it sounds cheesy but although it has been a hard and long battle between me, my Aspergers and also the university... IT WAS WORTH IT! I can't describe the way you feel, I think it is like having  the best day of your life, the satisfaction that you have completed something and ...

Ok remember I mentioned that essay I have to write on Radio Drama, I forgot to look at the fact I have to make the product that I have created apart of it. So looking over a powerpoint that contains stuff that we either did in the first year or second year of university and think WHAT??? See if you can understand this and factor it into what I am writing about: • Medium: How does your programme fit within the medium in its current state of technological and industrial development? • Format: Does your project correspond to or depart from and existing format? Bearing in mind that formats are industry standards and hence different to genres • Genre: Is your project part of an existing media genre? Does it conform or depart from generic conventions? Is it a hybrid? Does it propose a new development of the genre? • Style: Is your project characterised by a particular audio/visual style? What aesthetic choices have you made and what inspired these choices? Remember st...

Again the title seems vague but it's that time of the year when I have so many deadlines (today included) where I have a ton of work to do and no good starting point. I've already written 1 essay which seems to be enough but now have to do another and this is where my brain begins to melt. I have not time to do this essay and also clean up my actual production that goes along side this. So i'm sat in an editing suit looking at my essay and just wanting to bang my head against the wall. I did yesterday buy something to aid with my stress levels but I forgot it and also I don't think my uni would like me chucking a rugby ball around in a room full of computers. But you know what can you do. So apart from using my back up plan I'm now staring at my computer screen with the cursor just blinking back and forth looking at me to get my work done. This is the final stage and I need to get it done, but I feel over- worked and under pressure from everything and everyone. ...

So final semester stress has finally raised it's ugly head + my friends are pressuring me to forgive someone who just had complete and total disrespect for me right now in the near to 12 days left  before my final project deadline.  This is going to kill me! If I don't keep calm, which I have done for a while but it's at the stage where I feel like i'm going to explode. And I don't want to cos all it does is cause misery and pain and ultimately again I am the bad guy. I also don't want to be sectioned or go back to a mental health unit because I can't go back. I've come so far and I feel like if I slip now at the last and most important hurdle that I'll just say goodbye to my life that i've worked so hard to create for myself. A career, A passion and ultimately a two fingers to my school who told me:  "I'd amount to nothing."  To win a battle with my own demons who control me, saying that they're right and that I am nothing, wor...

So it's time of year again where chocolate is bountiful and where I usually will stuff my face with the stuff! But this year it's slightly different as I've been going to the gym recently which is a great thing but can also be a nightmare for most AS people. Keeping fit is a good way of getting stress and anxiety out of our systems as well as keeping us in shape. But again there are lots of obstacles that can hold us back in these situations: usually it is again people. I don't know about you but I hate people watching me eat, let alone stare at me as I run on a treadmill. Now my first tip is to make sure that you go earlier in the morning or go in the afternoon as the gym is usually dead cos most people are at work during the day. Also take your music with you, most machines including the treadmill and the cross trainer do have an input for a USB or if you have an Apple Product where you simply plug it into the machine and then put your headphones in the audio jack...

Today is a day to celebrate and raise awareness to what is very misunderstood condition of the mind.  As this blog being all about Aspergers and specifically Aspergers Syndrome and how it effects girls, teens and also adults with the form of Autism that can be overlooked and sometimes ignored.  Yesterday I watched a Horizon programme deadicated to promoting the awareness of Autism, and was intrigued to see girls from all different aspects of the spectrum being inculded in the programme. One of the problems with this programme was there was only 1 female contruibutor with AS who was interviewed, the rest were all male. This could be for numerous amount of reasons but I thought as I was watching this programme that there should've been a little bit more focus on the female point of view when it came to living with autism whatever the part of the spectrum it would be.  I think today should be in part a day for females to stand up and say I have autism to and I am proud of it...

Being a teenager can be a nightmare whether you're AS or not.  Hormones, periods ( Yes I said the P word) and developing into a adult can be difficult especially if you have autism on top. As when being a teenager you're trying to find your place in this world, and with Aspergers finding who you are can take longer. When i was 13 I didn't know where I fitted in, High Schools are a breeding ground for labels and identities and with Aspergers labels and boxes are not the way to go as to fit in you have to be someone that sometimes you're not.  Being bombarded with this stress and pressure to be the perfect student, fit in with the IT Crowd  and be Popular as well as deal with all the physical changes that happen when you go through this period of you're life can make you feel like you won't be able to survive and then eventually the breakdown will occur.  From personal experience when I was 13 to 14 years old, trying to fit in to the perfect crowd and fit into the...