The Asperger's Girl Guide

We all have bad days but this week has been one where my emotions have taken control and I'm starting to wonder if I've made the right decision?  Doubting whether i've made the right choice is normal, I do on a daily basis but I've hit a patch of complete and utter meltdown mode and the cravings have returned to the point where I've considered buying a packet of cigarettes and smoke them all.  It started on Tuesday night, my anxiety hit the roof and I couldn't sleep, my mind was completely consumed with anxieties and that has continued for the rest of the week.  "I'm exhausted and emotionally gone through a process of complete and utter anger, depression and extreme anxiety." I just feel like I've lost complete control and although I usually can get through these rough patches and get back onto an even keel, over the last few days I've completely lost it. I've screamed, sobbed and nearly had a full on meltdown, becoming...

This Weekend has been a challenge...  Stress and anxiety are the main enemies that I have had to face as well as dealing with the new neighbours from hell.  I've managed to be good, cutting to 2-3 cigs a day and using my trusty friend the inhalator and chewing gum to avoid cravings /replace a cigarette and have been still using the patches as well.  The problems started on Sunday, it was a Bank Holiday Weekend in the UK which means we don't have to go to work on Monday and plus it was extremely sunny and hot so sitting in the garden reading was perfect until the new neighbour decided he wanted to host what I can only describe to be a rave from 3pm to 2am in the morning!  Before you think I'm being a party pooper, it was a professional PA with Decks plus a microphone and baring in mind I have Sensory Processing Disorder*  and anxiety I was in that twilight zone between being able to cope or having a raging meltdown, and to deal with said emot...

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The Last Two Weeks have been a series of anxiety, cravings and stress.  I've made positive changes and stuck to my goal to quit, although I haven't put any pressure on myself to achieve this in a set amount of time I can no see a smoke free me.  Told you the Inhalator looked strange! I have a new addition to the stop smoking battle as I've literally just come back from the doctors and had a chat about my progress and feeling slightly more better about the whole thing.  The one problem that I've been facing is the issue of idle hands, I have been sticking to using my gum and although that has been working, I'm missing the sensation of holding something in my hands.  It's a very tactile thing smoking and although you still get the release of nicotine through the patches and from the gum sometimes you miss the sensation of actually smoking physically.  So to combat this I have an inhalator, it looks strange but it is discreet and does the s...

I've managed to cut down my cigarettes down to 3-4 a day with the aid of a patch and worked out the little issues that made me have a wobble.  I'm currently sat here writing this post and feeling pretty rubbish at the moment as I've just been to the doctors and as expected something made my anxiety hit the roof and sky rocket into the galaxy and as I'm typing, I'm coming over the emotional high and trying not to hit the emotional low that comes next.  But this weekend has been positive in many ways and I don't want to take away from the good days just because I'm having yet again another wobble and self doubt is lurking in the shadows.  I actually started my patch early.. I said Friday but in fact I needed to put it on way before because I was setting myself up for failure doing it just with the gum alone.  It was my mum who suggested putting on the patches and then seeing how I coped from there and I have to say it's been a lot easier t...

It's not even Friday yet and already I'm becoming aggravated and anxious! 09/05/2018: Today I said to myself that I'll reduce my cigarettes down and although I'm a light smoker (10-15 a day) I'm already struggling mentally.  I did say to myself that it will be okay if I still have 8 cigarettes today but if I can deal with less than that well that'll be a bonus! I know that I will do it and that I'm possibly got other things going on in my head that are affecting the way I'm able to cope with cutting down but when I'm stressed my mind tells me I need/want nicotine!  I don't need/want it, but there is this pressure in the back of mind and I'm trying to ignore the little voices in my head that are whispering to me at the moment.  I've had 4 cigarettes today (so thats a positive) and have been chewing the nicotine gum when I feel that I want a cig rather than need one.  I don't know if this is a reaction to a subtle ...